Maybe my Mother was right

I am beginning to feel that the example my Mom gave of the guy who wanted to be a lion tamer when he thought an anteater was a lion was right, she used that analogy for decades about my being an artist and I always resisted that belief but my track record and all the evidence has pretty much supported her point.



I'm not sure if it's the the stress of trying to be creative and the effort of trying to raise my skills up to a professional level while I'm fighting health problems or that I don't have the talent or the skills necessary for a career graphic design anymore than an accountant would have to be a lion tamer.

I've been in my second try at the Portfolio class for a month now and I haven't made any progress on my own stuff just got some general ideas for it. Dan hasn't liked any of my designs for my mood board and it's hard to say he's wrong about it since all the employers I've sent my stuff to haven't liked it either.

I haven't been able to figure out if that means that I should develop my skills more or that I just don't have what it takes to be a successful designer. Since if I can't even satisfy Dan as a boss with my designs when he tells me what he doesn't like instead of nothing at all or just a flat out rejection without any reason. Then it doesn't bode well for getting a more advanced job, or even getting into that student design form that he started as a stepping stone or a reference for a etter job.

It might be that my estimation of my talet or skills is the anteater and the actual acceptable standard it takes to have a successful career is the lion.

Reaching for the Fountain

I was watching The Fountain last weekend and it had a lot about death and rebirth in it.



It's easier to understand from the trailer but you don't get the full effect unless you see the ending



Maybe I should put more of those ideas in when I do the scenes with the GameMaster in The Writer's Nightmare.



As soon as I get to that part



In around 8 episodes

Celebrating Labor Day

I figured that since I had 4 days off for Labor Day that I could take a break from my portfolio and do another episode of "The Writer's Nightmare" animated comic videos.



I got the 9th done and part of the 10th where Peter and Cyan have the showdown with Pan the Goat God.



I saw another video with Ken Wilber where he explains some of the ideas he put in his book Integral Spirituality.