I was able to get some good stuff...

...as long as it lasted, hard to say if I'll be able to get any more from Barnes & Noble before next summer if at all.





I've put off doing some more episodes for a while until I get my portfolio done so I'm holding it at episode 20





I put the Dark Angel series DVD on my wishlist the 1st thing after I saw that Die Another Day video that had the footage but I wasn't able to get until now since the size of the PayPal wasn't enough before





The 1st season was pretty good hopefully the 2nd was too





Since they kept cutting out our favorite parts in Jay and Silent Bob Strikes Back I got it on DVD so we could watch it uncensored the way it was supposed to be seen.



I saw the opening scene from A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to the Forum on the Muppet Show and it inspired me to get the whole thing on DVD

1 step foward....

... for every 2 steps back doesn't make muck progress but at least it's something.

I've been able to get a design for my portfolio that Dan approves of so I'm making some small strides on that but it doesn't guarantee he'll let me into that student design firm or that other employers will pay attention to it.

That point about the lion tamers still might apply, this is just a step toward trying to find out which view is correct and putting the best foot forward in making a good impressiom in order to get a more positive outcome.



I finally got episode 18 approved on Revver, it must have been that I uploaded it too early in the day and it fell between the cracks when they got to their office and they never noticed it. So after the weekend I waited until the middle of the day and uploaded it again so they would see it this time.





I found out that they were listed under the failed uploads in my dashboard on Revver so I went and deleted those and uploaded episode 18 and 19 again





It's hard to follow them when they're scattered around so I figured I should put them in another blog so they would be in the right order from beginning to end

Maybe my Mother was right

I am beginning to feel that the example my Mom gave of the guy who wanted to be a lion tamer when he thought an anteater was a lion was right, she used that analogy for decades about my being an artist and I always resisted that belief but my track record and all the evidence has pretty much supported her point.



I'm not sure if it's the the stress of trying to be creative and the effort of trying to raise my skills up to a professional level while I'm fighting health problems or that I don't have the talent or the skills necessary for a career graphic design anymore than an accountant would have to be a lion tamer.

I've been in my second try at the Portfolio class for a month now and I haven't made any progress on my own stuff just got some general ideas for it. Dan hasn't liked any of my designs for my mood board and it's hard to say he's wrong about it since all the employers I've sent my stuff to haven't liked it either.

I haven't been able to figure out if that means that I should develop my skills more or that I just don't have what it takes to be a successful designer. Since if I can't even satisfy Dan as a boss with my designs when he tells me what he doesn't like instead of nothing at all or just a flat out rejection without any reason. Then it doesn't bode well for getting a more advanced job, or even getting into that student design form that he started as a stepping stone or a reference for a etter job.

It might be that my estimation of my talet or skills is the anteater and the actual acceptable standard it takes to have a successful career is the lion.

Reaching for the Fountain

I was watching The Fountain last weekend and it had a lot about death and rebirth in it.



It's easier to understand from the trailer but you don't get the full effect unless you see the ending



Maybe I should put more of those ideas in when I do the scenes with the GameMaster in The Writer's Nightmare.



As soon as I get to that part



In around 8 episodes

Celebrating Labor Day

I figured that since I had 4 days off for Labor Day that I could take a break from my portfolio and do another episode of "The Writer's Nightmare" animated comic videos.



I got the 9th done and part of the 10th where Peter and Cyan have the showdown with Pan the Goat God.



I saw another video with Ken Wilber where he explains some of the ideas he put in his book Integral Spirituality.